B for Busy. B for Bored

During the Semester, can’t wait for summer holidays. During the final exams, literally counting days when the exams will be over and I’ll have freedom. freedom to do anything I want (almost anything )

First day of vacation, yayyyy holidays, sleep it off.

second day, yayyyyynessss. I can do anything I want. catch up with tv shows or something

third day, ummm, what do I do now?

fourth day, call up friends asking them what to do. how to spend the summer.

remaining holidays. I’m bored. tell me what to do. I have nothing to do. aarrrggghhh.

This is how I spend my summer. These days I’m so bored out of my mind. nothing interests me anymore. yeah I watch tv-shows but unlike before, I’m just watching them to finish them off. sure once I start watching, it grabs my attention, keeps me busy for 2 days, and then again I’m like now what. then feel guilty about wasting holidays, work a little and then again start another tv show and the cycle keeps repeating. This is how spent a month. time flies by.

Before starting university, I used to love watching movies, and now I can’t get myself to start watching a movie. my frequency of watching movies every weekend or daily on vacation has dropped down to once or twice a month. i like movies but it just doesn’t grab my attention like it used to. All the time I have this voice in the back of my head telling me you are wasting time. you should work. so I start to work, and I get really involved in it. work continuously for hours non-stop. but then there comes a point when you get exhausted and you take a break, and then that break doesn’t end.

The worst thing is when I start thinking. my mind goes haywire, it just starts to work and think and think and think and think and think and think and …… never stops. and even if I try I can’t stop it. I try to think of something particular, remember something, I can’t because I feel like I have a mind block. its just the worst feeling ever. due to this I feel lazy and tired all the time.  I want to think about important things like set goals for myself. Plan for the future but NO, my brain’s too busy processing other stuff to care what I want to think about =/

so the point of this this entire post was that the only thing that has managed to grab my attention this summer is TEDxTalks. sure I’m wasting time but I also get the feeling that I’m learning something. these will definitely help me somewhere sometime in life. Although I must admit, because of my busy brain my memory has become so bad I can’t recall what I heard moments after I complete the video. yeah so anyways, I’m gonna be posting the good ones here, try to check ‘em out. you won’t be disappointed.

Suicide Bombers (posted on June 26, 2012)

I came across this piece of writing, and it reminded me of “suicide bombers” as mentioned by Nadeem Chawhan, A guest speak in my Organisational Behavior class.

http://haveheart.com/features/self.html

It’s important for us to stay away from suicide bombers, but its not really that easy 

I’ll try looking for what I mean by suicide bombers here. *youtube search*. Long search. can’t find it at the moment. If I come across it later, I’ll post it then.

basically the concept is that anybody who spreads negative thoughts is a suicide bomber. so stay away from them.

I did it Again (posted on june 12, 2012)

I know, I know…I said I wouldn’t stop blogging, but the truth is after the exams ended, I forgot I had a blog =/ SADNESS. seriously, what kind of blogger am I if I forget about my own blog. I’ll try my best that it doesn’t happen again.

I’m happy today. over the past year, I thought I changed. Today, I realized, I didn’t change after all. I realized I’m my mom’s copy, and these similarities, no one can change them about me. Now, what I thought were changes, I wouldn’t call them changes anymore. I would call them exceptions, in the form of best friends.

okay, that’s a short post. I’m out of things to say =/

ummm…its a start. better than nothing, right?

GoodBye One Tree Hill

9 years of one tree hill, finally come to an end.
“it resonates with people on a very personal level” – Nathan Scott
“feel like I have a history and a family, that’s gonna be the hardest to walk away from” – Quinn
“its like you have a friend or a loved one, that you know you’re not gonna see anymore” Mark Schwahn
“this was somewhat of a coming of age show. we met our characters as juniors in highschool. to spend 9 years with those characters, you can feel so much growth” - Mark Schwahn

youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GMenv6_UVXA&feature=share

one tree hill meant different things to different audiences…for some people it was guilty pleasure. we did psychos, and we did car crashes. we never set put to make it that way. for many of our fans it was not that. It was very heart felt and very real. sometimes we wanted the small moments to be the big moments. and other times we wanted it to be, loud and scary, and mysterious. we wanted to leave people on the edge of their seat

youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8PT0XB2oBY&feature=share

Thank you Mark Schwahn

youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuDVjuFKgmA&feature=share

One tree hill will be greatly missed. I grew up with this show. There was this connection with the characters, that I’m going to miss the most.

End of Semester (posted April 25, 2012)

Sorry guys for the delay. I know its been quite long since the last post. I’ve been busy with midterms, and now since the end of semester is near, have loads of projects. not enough time.

Talking about the end of semester, is that a good thing or not? I mean end of semester means exams [hate exams], but it also means holidays [yayness]. so I guess I’ll go with the good thing 

Like every year, I have all these plans for things I have to go through for the finals, but I’m pretty sure I won’t. I just can’t study for exams until a day before. actually for these midterms, I wasn’t even tensed a day before, tension started on the exam morning. unless I’m tensed I can’t study properly. I’m going to have to pay the price for this. anyways, I just hope the finals go well.

btw, does anyone agree with me when I say Exams can’t really judge how much we have learnt. I would say assignments are the real test [that is if you do them yourself, no copying]. I mean, people who know everything usually end up making blunders in exams because of the time constraint. My point being, final exams shouldn’t have a 50% weightage.  but again,  who would listen to me?

hopefully my next post will be soon [before the finals], but no promises

Infinite Loop of Life

this is another quote from One Tree Hill.

“Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives, or if the moments in our lives make us? ” – Lucas Scott

Do you know the answer? I have thought about it but can’t figure it out. I would just say it goes both ways. but can you choose between the two?

Everything  you do, Everything you don’t do, Every decision you make, everything…determines who you are. Each one of those little decisions you make everyday has an effect on your personality. All those decisions have made you who you are today.

A while ago I thought I wasn’t happy with who I am, but If I was given a choice to go back and change something, I don’t think I would. This made me realize that I don’t really want to change myself. I am satisfied with who I am. Change is inevitable, and I would willingly change myself based on my future encounters, my future decisions, but I wouldn’t change anything from my Past. You don’t really notice when its happening, but after a while, you realize you are not the same person you were.

As for the “if we make moments in our lives”, then I guess, Yes we do. The sort of person you are, your likes, your dislikes, how you react to a situation will make a moment. It happens that one of the most normal, routine day of your life can present a precious moment because of how you react to it.

The People you meet in life also have a significant role in making you who you are. that’s another topic, another quote…

okay so the problem is, how we react to a situation makes a moment. and the moments which occur in our life make us who we are and determine how we react to a situation. so where did this loop start? do we have anything in our control?

Boundaries

“At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them “-Grey’s Anatomy