Just now I was watching "Ted Talks" and I realized that I wasn't actually WATCHING it or LISTENING to it. Infact what I was doing was looking at the screen and hearing what the man was saying. During the video I managed to grab an idea of what the man was talking about, but as soon as it ended, which is just now, I can't remember anything he said.
I had been trying to figure out why/how my memory had gone so bad and I guess this is the answer. I don't LISTEN, I only hear what's happening in my surroundings.I don't pay attention. Figuring this much out solves one part of the problem. The second part is, WHY DON'T I PAY ATTENTION? I don't know.
Honestly, I'm starting to freak myself out. I don't know who I am anymore. The things which once appealed to me, don't appeal to me anymore. My priorities are all messed up. There are a few things remaining which I am sure I want in life, but the problem is I'm not really doing anything to achieve them. and the answer to everything is I DON'T KNOW =/
-7th August 2012-
