This was an assignment for Organisation Behavior. It really got me thinking as to what I really wanted to be. Sir told us we could write about anything, It doesn't have to make sense, doesn't have to be logical. Just look into yourself and pour out your feelings. This is what I came up with.
As a kid I wanted to become a doctor. As I became older, I wanted to become a photographer, a mathematician, a scientist, an astronaut, a hair stylist, a chef, a forensic scientist and what not. All these were probably just dreams growing up. These were the answers I would give to people who asked me what I wanted to be. Apart from these there’s this deep down fantasy, something you don’t tell people. For me that was a psychotherapist. I have this feeling of insecurity, trust issues. I feel like I don’t understand people. I don’t know how people think. This is how it all began.
The basic reason why I want to be a psychotherapist is because I want to understand people, understand how a human brain works, how people think, why do we all perceive things differently?
If you know me, you would know that I’m not very talkative at first, I’m more of a listener. I like listening to people, and since I’m not the talkative type, I’m pretty good at keeping secrets. What I’m not good at is giving advice. I would hope to learn this if a plan to do a degree in psychotherapy. Or maybe I won’t need to, because as far as I know, psychotherapist answer questions with questions.
From what I know about myself, psychotherapy is an ideal job for me. I have the need to know things. It’s a job where people can come to me with their problems, and well I can help fix those problems. I’d be helping the society, making people happy. Spreading smiles :)
Apart from helping people, I want to know why we humans behave in a certain way. Why do some people kill? What was a murderer thinking when he first killed? Why do people commit suicide? What could be so bad in life that you simply give up, forget all the good and kill yourself?
I don’t know why I didn’t adopt this as a career when I had the chance. I could have done bachelors in psychotherapy. But I didn’t. This need of mine to know things is deeper than even I realize. I plan to study about it. There are enough books and enough material to learn about it on my own. That is exactly what I’ll do, SOMEDAY.
