B for Busy. B for Bored

During the Semester, can’t wait for summer holidays. During the final exams, literally counting days when the exams will be over and I’ll have freedom. freedom to do anything I want (almost anything )

First day of vacation, yayyyy holidays, sleep it off.

second day, yayyyyynessss. I can do anything I want. catch up with tv shows or something

third day, ummm, what do I do now?

fourth day, call up friends asking them what to do. how to spend the summer.

remaining holidays. I’m bored. tell me what to do. I have nothing to do. aarrrggghhh.

This is how I spend my summer. These days I’m so bored out of my mind. nothing interests me anymore. yeah I watch tv-shows but unlike before, I’m just watching them to finish them off. sure once I start watching, it grabs my attention, keeps me busy for 2 days, and then again I’m like now what. then feel guilty about wasting holidays, work a little and then again start another tv show and the cycle keeps repeating. This is how spent a month. time flies by.

Before starting university, I used to love watching movies, and now I can’t get myself to start watching a movie. my frequency of watching movies every weekend or daily on vacation has dropped down to once or twice a month. i like movies but it just doesn’t grab my attention like it used to. All the time I have this voice in the back of my head telling me you are wasting time. you should work. so I start to work, and I get really involved in it. work continuously for hours non-stop. but then there comes a point when you get exhausted and you take a break, and then that break doesn’t end.

The worst thing is when I start thinking. my mind goes haywire, it just starts to work and think and think and think and think and think and think and …… never stops. and even if I try I can’t stop it. I try to think of something particular, remember something, I can’t because I feel like I have a mind block. its just the worst feeling ever. due to this I feel lazy and tired all the time.  I want to think about important things like set goals for myself. Plan for the future but NO, my brain’s too busy processing other stuff to care what I want to think about =/

so the point of this this entire post was that the only thing that has managed to grab my attention this summer is TEDxTalks. sure I’m wasting time but I also get the feeling that I’m learning something. these will definitely help me somewhere sometime in life. Although I must admit, because of my busy brain my memory has become so bad I can’t recall what I heard moments after I complete the video. yeah so anyways, I’m gonna be posting the good ones here, try to check ‘em out. you won’t be disappointed.