Sunday, January 20, 2013
untitled
so I made another blog a while ago and as expected I didn't follow through with my plans of blogging atleast once a week. now I'm thinking to change that to a tech blog and removing all other posts. since I don't want to remove those posts, I'm gonna shift them here
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
I DON'T KNOW
Just now I was watching "Ted Talks" and I realized that I wasn't actually WATCHING it or LISTENING to it. Infact what I was doing was looking at the screen and hearing what the man was saying. During the video I managed to grab an idea of what the man was talking about, but as soon as it ended, which is just now, I can't remember anything he said.
I had been trying to figure out why/how my memory had gone so bad and I guess this is the answer. I don't LISTEN, I only hear what's happening in my surroundings.I don't pay attention. Figuring this much out solves one part of the problem. The second part is, WHY DON'T I PAY ATTENTION? I don't know.
Honestly, I'm starting to freak myself out. I don't know who I am anymore. The things which once appealed to me, don't appeal to me anymore. My priorities are all messed up. There are a few things remaining which I am sure I want in life, but the problem is I'm not really doing anything to achieve them. and the answer to everything is I DON'T KNOW =/
-7th August 2012-
Friday, March 23, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
ASPIRATION (fantasy)
This was an assignment for Organisation Behavior. It really got me thinking as to what I really wanted to be. Sir told us we could write about anything, It doesn't have to make sense, doesn't have to be logical. Just look into yourself and pour out your feelings. This is what I came up with.
As a kid I wanted to become a doctor. As I became older, I wanted to become a photographer, a mathematician, a scientist, an astronaut, a hair stylist, a chef, a forensic scientist and what not. All these were probably just dreams growing up. These were the answers I would give to people who asked me what I wanted to be. Apart from these there’s this deep down fantasy, something you don’t tell people. For me that was a psychotherapist. I have this feeling of insecurity, trust issues. I feel like I don’t understand people. I don’t know how people think. This is how it all began.
The basic reason why I want to be a psychotherapist is because I want to understand people, understand how a human brain works, how people think, why do we all perceive things differently?
If you know me, you would know that I’m not very talkative at first, I’m more of a listener. I like listening to people, and since I’m not the talkative type, I’m pretty good at keeping secrets. What I’m not good at is giving advice. I would hope to learn this if a plan to do a degree in psychotherapy. Or maybe I won’t need to, because as far as I know, psychotherapist answer questions with questions.
From what I know about myself, psychotherapy is an ideal job for me. I have the need to know things. It’s a job where people can come to me with their problems, and well I can help fix those problems. I’d be helping the society, making people happy. Spreading smiles :)
Apart from helping people, I want to know why we humans behave in a certain way. Why do some people kill? What was a murderer thinking when he first killed? Why do people commit suicide? What could be so bad in life that you simply give up, forget all the good and kill yourself?
I don’t know why I didn’t adopt this as a career when I had the chance. I could have done bachelors in psychotherapy. But I didn’t. This need of mine to know things is deeper than even I realize. I plan to study about it. There are enough books and enough material to learn about it on my own. That is exactly what I’ll do, SOMEDAY.
As a kid I wanted to become a doctor. As I became older, I wanted to become a photographer, a mathematician, a scientist, an astronaut, a hair stylist, a chef, a forensic scientist and what not. All these were probably just dreams growing up. These were the answers I would give to people who asked me what I wanted to be. Apart from these there’s this deep down fantasy, something you don’t tell people. For me that was a psychotherapist. I have this feeling of insecurity, trust issues. I feel like I don’t understand people. I don’t know how people think. This is how it all began.
The basic reason why I want to be a psychotherapist is because I want to understand people, understand how a human brain works, how people think, why do we all perceive things differently?
If you know me, you would know that I’m not very talkative at first, I’m more of a listener. I like listening to people, and since I’m not the talkative type, I’m pretty good at keeping secrets. What I’m not good at is giving advice. I would hope to learn this if a plan to do a degree in psychotherapy. Or maybe I won’t need to, because as far as I know, psychotherapist answer questions with questions.
From what I know about myself, psychotherapy is an ideal job for me. I have the need to know things. It’s a job where people can come to me with their problems, and well I can help fix those problems. I’d be helping the society, making people happy. Spreading smiles :)
Apart from helping people, I want to know why we humans behave in a certain way. Why do some people kill? What was a murderer thinking when he first killed? Why do people commit suicide? What could be so bad in life that you simply give up, forget all the good and kill yourself?
I don’t know why I didn’t adopt this as a career when I had the chance. I could have done bachelors in psychotherapy. But I didn’t. This need of mine to know things is deeper than even I realize. I plan to study about it. There are enough books and enough material to learn about it on my own. That is exactly what I’ll do, SOMEDAY.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
How I would like to perceive my current Situation ...
This is going to be my first real post since I joined University.
Firstly, University life is NOTHING like what we are told or what we have seen in movies. As far as my university life is concerned, I would say, university is study study study, sleep, study. zero social life. okay maybe not zero, but very low. on a scale of 1 to 100, lets say 10. [that's just me]
I have my finals very soon. Last week of classes in progress. Overburdened with assignments, projects, term papers, presentation, quizzes, evaluations and what not.
This thought struck my mind and I felt the need to blog. so here I am after all this time.
"Our teachers torture us because they care about our future. We let them torture us because we care about our future. Our family on the other hand cares about us and scold us and tell us to take a break from studies as an attempt to keep us sane. They are the only ones who care about our PRESENT."
So don't hate them for scolding you, don't be mad at them. They want you to enjoy today, and not worry about the future. (oh, and don't forget, your grades are your responsibility. They have nothing to do with your family telling you to take a break). This is what I'm trying to make myself believe at the moment. Don't know how much of this is true :P
Also, I'm forced to wonder, how we came to this stage. There used to be a time when we would get scolded because we didn't want to study. Now, we get scolded because we study all the time.
P.S If you don't agree, re-read the post replacing all "we" with "I"
P.P.S Listen to your Parents, they know what's best for you. I didn't, Now I'm paying the Price. [#medical, #FAST...If you know what I mean]
Firstly, University life is NOTHING like what we are told or what we have seen in movies. As far as my university life is concerned, I would say, university is study study study, sleep, study. zero social life. okay maybe not zero, but very low. on a scale of 1 to 100, lets say 10. [that's just me]
I have my finals very soon. Last week of classes in progress. Overburdened with assignments, projects, term papers, presentation, quizzes, evaluations and what not.
This thought struck my mind and I felt the need to blog. so here I am after all this time.
"Our teachers torture us because they care about our future. We let them torture us because we care about our future. Our family on the other hand cares about us and scold us and tell us to take a break from studies as an attempt to keep us sane. They are the only ones who care about our PRESENT."
So don't hate them for scolding you, don't be mad at them. They want you to enjoy today, and not worry about the future. (oh, and don't forget, your grades are your responsibility. They have nothing to do with your family telling you to take a break). This is what I'm trying to make myself believe at the moment. Don't know how much of this is true :P
Also, I'm forced to wonder, how we came to this stage. There used to be a time when we would get scolded because we didn't want to study. Now, we get scolded because we study all the time.
P.S If you don't agree, re-read the post replacing all "we" with "I"
P.P.S Listen to your Parents, they know what's best for you. I didn't, Now I'm paying the Price. [#medical, #FAST...If you know what I mean]
Saturday, October 9, 2010
I AM who I AM
Introspective
You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.
Buttoned-Down
You like to know that everything is in its place; it's somehow empowering to know that the world around you is neat and organized. For you, schedules and timelines are great ways to stay on track, and mowing down the items on your "to do" list is a source of happiness.
You do not believe that a clean, orderly desk is the sign of a person who doesn't have enough to do; you don't thrive on a sense of personal anarchy.
Reserved
You are somewhat shy, or at least unwilling to spend all your time socializing. With you it's true that "still waters run deep," which is why many of your acquaintances never get to know you well.
You are not always ready to talk at the drop of a hat. Whether you're in the office or at a party, you're not likely to be found gabbing away in the middle of a group of people.
Curious
You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.
You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.
Solitary
You are a private person, not very comfortable in a big group, and view excessive socializing as a waste of time.
You not prefer hanging out with others to spending time alone; you do not tend to feel at home in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.
Discreet
You tend to hold onto your thoughts until you have something important to say, and even then you're not comfortable imposing your ideas on others unless you know they're truly interested.
You don't enjoy talking for the sake of talking, and you have no desire to be the center of attention.
Cooperative
You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.
You're not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.
Scrupulous
You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.
You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.
Conscientious
You feel it's important to work according to a plan and finish every task, to do things correctly and thoroughly.
You are not the kind of person who abandons a project before finishing it, or slacks off when you've lost interest.
Prudent
You look before you leap, think before you act, consider what you're about to say before you open your mouth to speak; that's why you rarely have to eat your words.
You usually don't get excited easily or blurt out the first thing that comes to mind without considering the consequences.
You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.
Buttoned-Down
You like to know that everything is in its place; it's somehow empowering to know that the world around you is neat and organized. For you, schedules and timelines are great ways to stay on track, and mowing down the items on your "to do" list is a source of happiness.
You do not believe that a clean, orderly desk is the sign of a person who doesn't have enough to do; you don't thrive on a sense of personal anarchy.
Reserved
You are somewhat shy, or at least unwilling to spend all your time socializing. With you it's true that "still waters run deep," which is why many of your acquaintances never get to know you well.
You are not always ready to talk at the drop of a hat. Whether you're in the office or at a party, you're not likely to be found gabbing away in the middle of a group of people.
Curious
You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.
You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.
Solitary
You are a private person, not very comfortable in a big group, and view excessive socializing as a waste of time.
You not prefer hanging out with others to spending time alone; you do not tend to feel at home in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.
Discreet
You tend to hold onto your thoughts until you have something important to say, and even then you're not comfortable imposing your ideas on others unless you know they're truly interested.
You don't enjoy talking for the sake of talking, and you have no desire to be the center of attention.
Cooperative
You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.
You're not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.
Scrupulous
You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.
You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.
Conscientious
You feel it's important to work according to a plan and finish every task, to do things correctly and thoroughly.
You are not the kind of person who abandons a project before finishing it, or slacks off when you've lost interest.
Prudent
You look before you leap, think before you act, consider what you're about to say before you open your mouth to speak; that's why you rarely have to eat your words.
You usually don't get excited easily or blurt out the first thing that comes to mind without considering the consequences.
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